The Slow Road To Healing And Understanding

It has only been about a week since the cancer was cut out of my ear and skin grafted back over the spot. Their was more restrictions after the surgery than I had anticipated. A wad of packing like a cotton ball sutured to my ear to keep pressure on the graft to allow the  graft to take. Hope it comes out on the next appointment to the doc’s Wednesday. The packing causes me to have the odd hollow sound when I talk as if talking in my head. The pain not all that much. With graft off the other ear I have had to sleep either flat out on my back or on my stomach. No lifting over 10lb. Geez, I got work to do around the place. The pain minimal, nothing like the pain of observing and reading about the state of our nation being stuck indoors so much of the time. Not supposed to sweat another unanticipated restriction.

I did get out one day and photograph. Putting on the macro lens too. The macro lens brings another world to view. Taking photos of critters I don’t recognize or even knew existed. Similar to how I feel when watching and reading about the virus, protests, actions by law enforcement, local and federal government responses, media’s exploitation and rare explanation. Digging deep researching to get at the truth. Then plenty of time to contemplate and allow my mind to slow perk.

Finding no easy answers. Clamping down on my anger at shared posts by folks I considered friends. One example a post stating why do these looters not steal chainsaws, lawnmowers and weed eaters. Intense anger raised my blood pressure at the lack of thought behind such a post. No wonder we elect such sorry politicians. Allow none thinking and go with what sounds good, believe all the crap fed to us without doing the work to get at the facts before voting. (hopefully I don’t have to explain that what use would a looter in the inner city have of a chainsaw?, hell how many trees do they even see in a month. What use is a lawnmower or weed eater when you never had a lawn? Just cause they are lazy is the unwarranted assumption!).

It keeps going around in my head about the shooting and death of a female EMT in our state shot in her own home by a law enforcement mistake. The woman’s boyfriend using a handgun and shooting an officer in response to them breaking in to the house. The officers naturally returning fire. If the boyfriend had not used a weapon perhaps the beautiful human female would still be alive, not dead by return fire. What was the immediacy requiring breaking in to the house, supposedly to find drugs.

I ponder the luck that has led me to live in the country where I only have to worry about the theft of a car hauling trailer and hay forks in the past year. Folks entering our property packing up junk scrap metal etc to steal due to its not being in plain sight. What I am getting at is that the simple concept of right and wrong is misplaced in our society.  Right is always on the side you are on. NOT. I fully understand that I have been and done wrong, each and every time by lack of thinking things through.

Growing up we did not own the places I lived in. We rented. The sound of a man hollering. I vant the rent, I vant the rent still echo’s in the recesses of my memory cells.

This is getting long so I better wrap it up. I hope for any who read this to think. Gifted with a brain that requires exercise like our bodies to remain useful…

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

This entry was posted in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink.

6 Responses to The Slow Road To Healing And Understanding

  1. I hope your ear feels better real soon. I had a tube put in mine to relieve pressure on my eardrum a few years ago and I was lucky because it was just about pain free. Not being able to sleep on my side would make me crazy.
    I hope getting outside with the camera took your mind off it for a while. You got some great shots, especially of the insects!
    I tell people “Remember the bully in your high school? He’s wearing a badge now.”

    • Jim says:

      New Hampshire Gardener,
      The discomfort is really not that bad just that it is keeping indoors more than I like. It will be great to sleep on my side again. Don’t know why I don’t do more macro, many times it shows me something I have not seen before in the summer weather. I believe I would hate any job that required a badge…

  2. ellen says:

    Macro lens, lends itself to a whole new world, like you say. Great pix.
    Not fun having difficulty sleeping comfortably. I trust it heals real soon.

    • Jim says:

      Ellen,
      It is a whole new world when insects are out and about in the warm weather. Weird looking insects abound. Fascinating patterns in plants as well. Feel on the mend. Thank You…

  3. BJ Helton says:

    So sorry you had to have surgery on your ear. Skin cancers are common for our age since we did not have sunscreen growing up, but that doesn’t make it less painful. Loved the colorful pictures.

    • Jim says:

      BJ Helton,
      The surgery not much really, could be worse for sure being a smoker. Yes, we just got sunburn without a thought then. Thank You it is a colorful time of year now and I appreciate it…

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *